phone jacks!

my fingers are on fire right now.
im looking out this window and i see the stupid clouds in this stupid corporate building.
excel is minimized on my screen, and i don't want to be here.
i dont want to be dressed like a business woman anymore.
i wish you would just let me go live where i want to and be done with it.
you're not gonna care what happens to me, as long as i dont live under your roof, you're okay.
you have a perfect life, with this un-perfect stranger who tries to be my dad, but fails miserably.
i haven't lived with him since i was 12, and i think i need to experiment a little.
BUT
YOU
KEEP
FUCKING
HOLDING
ME
BACK!
and i'm sick of it!
who cares how long i'll live there.
you won't and i certainly won't.
he's not my fucking father okay?
so stop trying to act like he is!

again, i can't say this enough, but you honestly think i'm going to live by your rules.
everyone thinks i do but i don't.
im gonna rebel, and you'll see one day, i'll move out before these 4 years are up.
because i can canive you to do it.
but i'm not so sure about him.

it's like, you share a fucking brain.
YOU'RE BRAIN WASHED!

you're not the same person you used to be
you're not the same person you used to be
YOU'RE NOT THE SAME PERSON YOU USED TO BE!

snap out of it already!

because, let me tell you. . .
if you don't do it

I WILL!