the cord.

so here's the thing, i'm still in trouble, but i've been happier.
ive actually grown to like who i've become, even if i did get in trouble.
isn't that what im supposed to do?
throughout this whole thing, i've felt dead asking myself if i was still alive.
and the truth is, im alive as i ever will be as of right now
i actually did what i was saying in my other blogs
i lived up to them.
so its back to eating popsicles, smiling, and laughing all the time.
waking up, getting showers and doing my hair and getting dressed acting like i have somewhere to go.
talking to my friends, getting zebracakes downtown and spitting them everywhere.
its back to the same old teenaged life i'll lead forever.

-cause i'll carry on like this, and never get old.