screechesandscratches

wake me up with the stinkiest breath, take me somewhere new and let me live in your arms.
let me breath the heaviest i've ever breathed before, and make me blink more than average.
i'm not the normal human you think i am, look up to me, look into my orange eyes, and tell me that the world will never blow up into a million pieces. make me proud to be alive, and let me live a million times more than i have. just a second longer, take me on a roller coaster ride that will take our breath away, make our stomach's feel like they're floating to our brain, and let us throw up magic. i'm holding onto you, and you're not letting go. send a hot pink shock through my toes that enters my legs and gets stuck in my femur. it'll make my legs shake, and my knee's vibrate. with wide eyes, i'll look at you in the most imperfect way you've ever been looked at. can i show you what life feels like? reality hasn't set into my head yet, and it hasn't set into your heart. these strip malls filled with cancer make me the happiest i've ever been. i've been arching back to just be able to kiss you upside down. i just wanted to say that i'm not the girl you wanted me to be. i'm not the girl i once was, and i never will be again. i'll be thinking like this forever, writing free concious forever, and i'll be laughing and sneezing forever. im a fork in the road that no one can ever remove. i'm the piece of yellow gum on the sidewalk people step on, i stick, and go everywhere with them. no matter where it is, to london, to france, to someone's underpants. i'm addicted to the way i feel, i'm addicted to the way my life is going, and i'm addicted to every poisonous thought that runs through my trail of childhood memories i once lived. i hear the sweetest sound of the swings screeching, with dirty butts and popsicles. there were ants crawling all over us. tickling each of my miniature hairs on my fingers. you're amazing. you saved me when i was nothing, you looked at me at my worse, and you loved me for who i was. capri suns were our lifestyle, and hide and seek was our cult. this bass enters my veins, and vibrates and shakes every single bone in my arm. i can feel the drums along with our beating hearts together. at the same pace, at the same instance, at the same moment. i'll never be a liar, but you'll always be my friend. i'm shining this white blinding light in your eyes, and all you can say is "i need more shade to these sunglasses." where did i go wrong? where did you go? i want to leave, leave everything behind. i'll scribble on your brain, and you'll scratch mine with a fountain pen. leave it up to me, and i'll leave my life up to you.