I DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHO ARE YOU ANYMORE?!
you've changed so much, it makes me nauseous.
i can't stand your presence in this cornered room.
you're starting to become like him.
the person inside me that unleashes every single time i'm angry.
you're the person who sprinkles cancer into my cereal in the morning.
YOU'RE the one who takes all the energy out of me.
YOU ARE THE FUCKING ONE WHO RAINS ON MY PARADE.
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO GOT ME AWAY FROM HIM
BUT YOU'RE BRINGING HIM BACK.
YOU'RE HIS SOUL.
i fucking hate you.
i can't stand you ANYMORE.
i'm not going to miss this place when i drive off in a van with my college friends.
i won't ever EVER FUCKING APOLOGIZE FOR THIS BLOG.
you've unleashed the beast that you can't cage up with your stupid nonsense idiotic rules.
you make my mind this poisonous place that makes me feel like plastic is over my mouth.
call me fucking crazy but, YOU MAKE ME WANT TO GET A GUN AND JUST END YOU.
END THIS.

i can't say this enough.
i despise what you have become.
and i despise what person you've made me become.

i'm living YOUR dream life that you never had.
you had people who didn't care about you either.
and
I'M NOT SORRY.
you fucking deserve it.

you're a walking, talking, NORMAL, human.
and that's the last thing i want to become.
you're making me walk into a ditch that's too deep for me to get out,
and too black for me to see out of.

i wanna escape your fucking yelling and just free fall out of a window.
with my hands by my side so there's no POSSIBLE way you can save me.
i DON'T EVER want to have to do this again.

how does it feel to read this?