..Did you ever really realize, that life is either like one big storybook with happy friends and ice cream, or one big nightmare of growing up without having time to adjust?
You're legs keep on growing higher and higher but your mind hasn't grown with you. It's still as simple as it ever will be. I'm just sitting here, wallowing in self pity for letting it all go. For letting it all crash and burn like this. My friends, they're all gone. They're all growing up. They all have a different perspective on life than I do, when they used to have the same as I did. We used to share so much, all 3 of us. We were like attached at the hip, we were the trio. Do you remember the time when we would all sit next to each other with our stupid business attire on our bodies, our legs were still not fully grown at this time. We were all independent but dependent at the same time. Sometimes, I close my eyes and imagine myself sitting in that stupid classroom learning about McDonald's, not being so selfish. Looking at the kid with the afro, and the kid with black spikey hair smiling from ear to ear because they were my best friends.
Except, soon after, our trio started to get holes in it. We started to crash and burn. We started getting competitive. Both of you guys liked me at the same time, and I just knew whenever we were filling out those time capsules we would all look at each other in disgust when we re-opened them in 12th grade.
Sometimes, I just close my eyes and re-live and smell and hear and taste the summer days you guys came over and we all slept on my bed at one time. Some people were left out, but I was too selfish to understand. I feel horrible for all the actions I put a certain someone through. But i just ended up turning my back on the person I attempted to go out with, but didn't quite work for someone that I'm currently dating that is working out. Kicking the other one to the curb.
Friendship is really kind of stupid in a way. I wish we all still got along, I wish we were all in the same fucking class and I wish we would stop all of this fucking jealousy and live life happy. Life is too short to be miserable.
Whatever happened to all of our songs whatever happened to staying up all night and talking to each other whatever happened to "the trio" whatever fucking happened to all of us. I don't want to be on fire, I don't want to crash and burn, I don't want to burn. The only thing I want to do if I end up crashing and burning is crashing and burning with you guys beside me.
There's no we in trio, there's riot.
To the fucking trio. I love you.
punch me harder;and i'll trip your quicker.
- I told him, "I'm a monster"
- Human eyes are so obsessed with clarity. What if truth is a blur?
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You don't have to apologize, you don't have to be miserable. You just have to be you. If everyone else grew up that's their problem. And for some of us (hint: me) you're the reason that a lot of us changed. Maybe I grew up because I thought that I was dragging you behind by being a poser all the fucking time. I'm no rebel. That's not me. Remember when I said that friends where you're super best friends for a year and then you fizzled out are the worst? There was a time when I thought we were like that.
It scared me.
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