i have to share this! ...

dream:
i was standing on a peer, just a wooden brown peer. overlooking the saddest body of water i have ever saw in my life. it was gray and i don't know if it was an ocean or a lake or a river, but it doesn't matter because there were fish jumping in and out of the water like it was hurting them. but fish live in water! THEY LOVE WATER! but they were jumping and flopping every which way and screaming like the water was toxic or something. and i think that's why the water was gray. so i walked away, because i couldn't take the noise of them. my hands were dangling at my sides and a hamster appeared in my right hand and a mouse appeared in my left hand. my eyes widened and i picked up my hands rather quickly to see that they were suffering. they were fucking squirming and dying in the palms of my hands. so i was frantically running every where, i was turning down streets that didn't even look safe trying to find one person that wasn't gray and down. but i didn't care anymore! i needed someone to help these poor animals. so i found a veterinarian lady, she looked like she could help. so i walk up to her, with the most disrupted look on my face, and i said to her, "hey could you help my animals? they're dying!" and she looks up and says, "there's really nothing we can do, mam. all we can do is kill them." so this veterinarian lady that i met, she snapped their necks. i looked up at her like she just killed my soul or something. and i just walked away looking at these gruesome looking animals that are now dead. i went to go sit down in this brownish chair, and it just so happened to be in the middle of a wedding ceremony. and i was just sitting there looking at my dead animals and looking up at the bride and groom and then back at my dead animals. and wondered, "am i the only one that's noticing this?" i didn't get how someone could get married while there were animals suffering on basically every corner of the street.

i cried when i woke up, and now i'm probably going to live my life very disturbed and i'll wonder about everything, and i'll probably be a little bit more pessimistic and paranoid.
thanks.