fresher than before.

this is a fresh start. this isn't the end, this is just the beginning.
for me, its just another day. i'm a little intimidated but, i'll manage.
i'll kill off my tendencies of being a nobody, and i'll kill off all of my annoying habits of mine.
just to show you that i've changed, and i've never felt better. i've changed, and i love the way i have. actually, no, i won't.
i won't kill off my annoying habits, because i don't need to change anymore than i already have.
i'll walk through everyday just the same, because i know that nobody really enjoys me.
and i'm actually, okay with that.
i used to think i would be scared, but you've really helped me grow from a little twig that's now a full live tree, taller than a skyscraper.
its just another fresh start like ice cubes in an ice tray.
I'M A LITTLE INTIMIDATED, BUT I'LL MANAGE. i'll feel rejuvanated and, i'll just repeat i guess.
honestly, i don't know what i'll do. i can't pretend that i'm just this strong girl waiting to take on the world by myself with no sturdy backbone.
because well, i absolutely no way in hell, can. by myself.
so i'm all by myself, with no one to help, and you know what.
i think it's time to get over myself.
it's time to stop relying on other people to heal my spine, and staple it back together.
because my arms are long enough, that i can do that myself.
i think it's time to just, see what happens, and what path i choose to go down.
and i think it's time to see if you notice.
shock.